god bless excedrin pm. 11 straight hours of sleep. ahhhh.
in other news, i forgot to mention this a while ago, but now that APs are done, we’re doing Generic Projects in my AP classes, and I’m doing one with Sewon (and I guess James lol) for Gov, and she specifically wanted to do a project on WOC in Congress (she said “minority women” because she doesn’t know the term “women of color” and it took me like a day or two to fully realize that was what she meant and that there already was a term for it haha).
We were thinking we’d do a video and like an interactive class thing where we apply the ratio of women in Congress to the class (like, women make up about 18% of Congress - that’s equal to two women in our Gov class.TWO. I mean there are only 4 of us as is, but literally HALF that would be Congress omfg)
my mom was trying to hold our dog to take a picture of his haircut and
also my lovely philosophy teacher and MUN director was pleased about the whole Day of Silence thing. He’s like almost 70 and a former public defender in California so he’s this really chill but also really strongly set in his values and beliefs. One of the things I love about him is that he advocates this simple sort of life that puts a lot of value on self-care, and to hell with everybody else, which is nice and refreshing to hear from someone as wise as I know he is.
Anyway, today he wore our sticker and supported the movement, and when he asked me if I would speak today in class (for a reading assignment thing) I said sure and he said, Good, good, the sticker is enough. He said, It’s kind of like a Superman cape, isn’t it? Like an invisible shield.
and that was like
idk something about that image, surely because I’m so into comics, was so heartening and touching to me. That he would view it like that. He has the right sense of justice and belief and respect in human beings, that his approval and his admiration means a lot to me. I’m very proud. Today was successful. By the end of the day we’d distributed nearly 150 stickers and definitely raised awareness to a lot of people who had no idea what this was.
as much as i say i dislike this school also, i dislike it as an institution but i do like it as, like, a place. i feel so much more comfortable here now. like i know all the places where i go by heart and just walking through them is a comforting exercise, going upstairs to the math classes, cutting by the lower school classes on the grassy side of the arcade, walking by ms. hutch’s room, the lil hall down to the library. like it is a place of reassurement now because i know it so well and, like, i claim it as my own. idk. i can make a fool of myself or stick out like a sore thumb one day because it’s MY school and i get to be there way in my places without any repercussions.
Back from Crete! Ahhhh if you ever get a chance to go to Crete, go to Crete. It was so lovely. I’ve been to Greece before, but this was my best trip (and that’s saying something bc it was also being in an enclosed space with my parents and lil bro for four nights).
The weather was so good crey and it isn’t the height of tourist season yet so while my parents seriously stuck out as these dorky sunburned Americans, it wasn’t over-crowded or anything and it was so nice. We went to the beach, we went horseback riding, we visited ancient ruins (Palace of fucking Knossos!!!!!! i cant even), it was the greatest. So pretty there ahhhh. And the food. oh my god the food.
I’m glad we watched this movie at a time like this. Matthew Shepard was a rich white kid, and that’s one of the reasons his murder got all the attention he did - but it also brings a lot of us back from this idea of “I support marriage equality! Prejudice is over!” and back into this reality of “this happened and it happened because we let it happen” and idk. I hope it gives some people some perspective.
Just showed The Laramie Project for an after-school event at my school. Incredibly moving. Not the movie but… there were like 5 people there when I showed up 10 minutes beforehand, and by 5 past 7, there were 40+ people there. We had to set up extra chairs and there were people sitting on the ground. Everyone was just like…totally captured by the movie. People cried (a lot of people) and at the end there was this feeling of like, “I can’t walk away from this.”
It was just amazing. It was a total victory. I talked to a lot of people and reminded them that Matthew Shepard was one of us. He graduated from our sister school.
It was just amazing.
aw I spent a whole year on Restoration. Started it at the beginning of 2012 and finished it March 2013. That’s so cute omg.
I have a meeting with our Headmaster today. He has thus far been pretty isolated from the development of our GSA, so today we are going to fully explain ourselves to him and make it clear that we aren’t dropping this, and that if there’s nothing he can do because the Board of Directors is tying his hands, then that is fine, and we are more than willing to take it on to them.
haha amidst all this great fortune i almost forgot
yesterday I went to a friend’s 18th bday party and we drove all the way to london in a limo omg
and then we saw Chorus Line and had dinner and omg
it was so fab
I got two National Silver Medals in the Scholastic Art and Writing Awards!
My school isn’t allowing us to publish an article about our GSA in the school newspaper
so we’re takin this to the board
A BOY IS SLEEPING IN MY BED TONIGHT